COLORADO SPRINGS — Jose Quiros and 14-year-old son Peter are enduring their first holiday season since wife and mother Ksenia Quiros killed herself in April in the wake of son Alexandre’s suicide.
The deaths rocked the community and the Air Force Academy, where Alex — “Sasha” to his family — was excelling when he died April 2. His mother disappeared 13 days later into Stratton Open Space, where she lay in a remote crevice, slept and died, having ingested excessive antihistamines. Now the family has gotten approval to place two memorial benches near a reservoir at the open space, probably in the spring.
“We’re just getting through the holidays,” Jose Quiros said after Thanksgiving. “Her birthday was really hard in September.
“Fortunately, there was so much time between their deaths and the holidays. Had they been back to back, I don’t know how you deal with that,” he said.
Quiros said getting through both birthdays helped prepare him and Peter for the holidays.
“With the holidays, we think about a lot of things. Do we put their stockings up or don’t we?”
Ksenia loved to celebrate Christmas, decking out the home with lights galore.
“You could see us from space, I swear,” Jose said. “We’ve got to figure out what to do with the lights.”
Jose and Peter decorated a small pine tree near the site where Ksenia died.
Together, they tackled one of the tougher chores: sorting through their loved ones’ possessions, disposing of much and rearranging the house so everything isn’t a reminder.
The cadet’s death raised suspicion as his body was covered with cuts. The El Paso County Coroner’s Office ruled that the wounds had been self-inflicted. The Air Force Office of Special Investigations refused to release results of its investigation and related documents requested under the Freedom of Information Act, saying the eight-month probe is ongoing.
“We’re doing well under the circumstances,” Jose said. “We’re working toward getting healthier and getting back to some type of normalcy. It’s helped a lot — the support and the outpouring, especially in those early days.”
From the start, Jose has said Ksenia went to be with Alex, knowing he would take care of Peter.
“She wasn’t thinking straight,” he said. “She was in a lot of pain.”
Despite the tragedies, Peter is doing well. And Jose is devoted to his son. The two spent a month in Europe over the summer getting to know one another better, and it “broke the cycle we were in,” Jose said.
Peter’s grades are good, he has become proficient in math, he “eats up the miles” running and is looking forward to college, his father said.
“He’s grown up a lot, unfortunately,” Jose said. “Even though that’s been bad, he’s channeling it in a good way. He’s been the ground for me. Otherwise, people lose themselves. We help each other, and it’s worked.”
They were planning to visit Wilhelm Monument Co. this month to select designs and wording for the memorial benches, which will be placed on Colorado Springs Utilities land near the South Suburban Reservoir, said Mark Shea, watershed planning supervisor for Utilities.
When the bench approval process got ensnared in city government bureaucracy, Utilities president and CEO Jerry Forte reportedly told a Utilities manager: “Just make it happen.” And they did.
“For us, it’s a way to remember them in a positive way,” Jose said. “It’s beautiful out there. It’s a good place to go and sit and remember them. For other folks, it’s just a good place to sit — and a good view.”
He rejected several offers to start a fund or contribute money, but the bench idea resonated. It came from Sharon Dauwalder of Alpine, Utah, who has a son at the academy.
“We just wanted the lives of Ksenia and Alex to offer a more lasting meaning — for all of us,” Dauwalder said.
She has collected more than $12,000 in donations, mostly from fellow academy parents, and the Pikes Peak Community Foundation is managing the money.
Meanwhile, father and son are able to do a little more each day, “but there’s still times we just back off,” Jose said. “We’re doing more things together. We have no choice. But that’s also been rewarding in some ways.
“It’s made us stronger.”
